Similar situation for me too. It was my first time as well. He was a black guy and very well endowed. I was content to suck his cock but he had other plans. I begged him not to but he overpowered me and had his way with me
I keep watching this as it reminds me exactly of my first time when I was 30. He was a very strong, much older German guy. Deal was for oral only. Starting at the 3 minute mark in this video, exactly as it went for me. I was begging him not to. I was a changed person at the end.